unforgiven

saying sorry is not that simple like everyone is saying...specially when you say sorry to someone who's so stubborn and won't forgive you even though you'll die doing it! i just don't understand why would someone won't forgive a person who sincerely said sorry...

they say that to forgive someone you should forgive yourself first. so does that mean she can't forgive herself yet so that's why she still can't forgive me? well, let's think of another reason....

maybe she can't forgive me because she's guilty...that she really used me... i like to think that this is the real reason why she really can't forgive me. she can't accept to herself that she really did used me and she can't talk to me because she's guilty that's why she wont let me say sorry and just ignore me like nothing happened.

another reason why she can't forgive me... maybe she's being hard to get...always wants me to keep saying sorry to her because she likes that attention. didn't she think that i'm the one getting hurt just running after her just to say sorry and she won't even say anything? this reason would really suck for me!!!

hmm let's see...maybe i really did hurt her for just saying an opinion which she can easily deny! i told her that MAYBE she's just using me..anyone would think like that if someone want you to make her assignments or requirements for her maybe because she knew you would do it because you have feelings for her. well its okay if that would happen once but that happened many times and when the times comes that you get tired doing all those things and you would like to stop....she get's so furious!

if she's not really using me, i think she would really forgive me. and she would accept the fact that what i said is just an opinion...she could easily deny it or tell me that i'm wrong. but instead she won't talk to me anymore and even though i went through hell saying sorry she ignores me.

i want to stop this nonsense, i'm getting tired fighting with her if that's what she thinks... she's the only one who's making this thing get worse. all i want her to do is forgive me, then i won't bother her anymore after that. but she still doesn't forgive me after all what i've done...for her, i'm unforgiven....