I AM A FOOL

i'm slowly dying inside, why? it's because im such a fool. i fell in love with a friend of mine but i can't tell her exactly what i feel. she's a kind of girl who ignores people who liked her or should i say love her....when you see her for the first time or some one introduced you to her, she'll just nod not even smile at you.she has a very mystical attitude. there are many ladies out there but why? why did i fall for a girl who will never love me. she's like an angel from heaven and i'm just a mere human. hoping that i can reach or even touch a heart of an angel...it's so impossible. many ladies can make me smile,even more sociable than her but still i continue to fall for someone who ignores me like i'm just a ghost. i can't take it anymore, i want to tell her how i feel. show to her how important she is to me but still there are reasons that keeps me holding back. first reason, she's my friend and i don't want to see her avoiding me when she find out about my feelings: second, she can't love someone like me. i have nothing while she has everything a girl like her can have. she's rich, smart, beautiful and so talented while i feel like i'm just a crap!and my hatest reason of all...she's loving someone else!i wish i was that guy she's loving right now. maybe that guy she is with is so happy that he considers his life complete. HOW FOOLISH OF ME STILL FALLING FOR HER AND ALSO GETTING HURT AT THE SAME TIME. I KNOW DEEP INSIDE ME THAT I DON'T HAVE EVEN THE RIGHT TO BE HURT LIKE THIS.SHE DOESN'T KNOW I LOVE HER!BUT STILL I'M HURTING, CRYING EVERY SINGLE TIME I REALIZE TO MYSELF THAT SHE WON'T BE MINE... IF YOU KNOW WHO ARE, THIS ONE'S FOR YOU... _ _ _ _ _  _ _ _ _  _ _ _ _ _ _ i LOVE YOU!I REALLY DO, BUT I GUESS YOU WON'T EVER KNOW IT. IF YOU'RE SMART ENOUGH AND THINK OF THOSE THINGS I'VE DONE FOR YOU MAYBE YOU'LL REALIZE WHAT YOU ARE TO ME. YOU'RE NOT ONLY MY FRIEND...YOU'RE MORE THAN THAT TO ME.....